I See the Light

I have felt like my life was on a runaway train and every time I saw a light at the end of the tunnel, it was another oncoming train!

It seemed that every time I turned around I got another medical diagnosis, or disappointing news about my family or work. I have been handling it pretty well, and definitely better than I have in the past.

Last week I saw my Ophthalmologist and he diagnosed me with Diabetic Retinopathy and told me that I would need laser surgery to correct it. I was terrified! I knew that my past eating disorder behaviors had contributed to the decline in my eyes, my numbness in my feet and many other complications. I had hoped that it wouldn't come to this yet.

I then saw a Retina Specialist, and almost had a panic attack in his office while I waited. I was able to calm down and keep it at bay. A victory for me yet again!

When the doctor came in I held my breath, expecting the worst. He told me that he could definitely see damage, but that the damage did not warrant any treatment right now.

I am to keep taking care of myself, and keep the blood sugars under control. I can reverse some of the damage by tight control.

I CAN DO IT!

I see the light and this time it is blue skies and gorgeous scenery!

Hallelujah!