Sunday, April 11, 2010

Anxiety, my Constant Companion

I have defined myself as a "worrier." It is true, I worry about everything. I worry about things I can control and things I cannot. I worry about good things and bad. I worry about those I love and I worry about those that I can barely tolerate. I worry all the time!

There have been brief respites from the worry over the years, times where I was able to "Let go and let God." Those times rarely last long.

Anxiety has been with me longer than anyone other than my mom and brother. I remember worrying about things in Kindergarten.

I have developed a few strategies over the years:

  • Prayer, time spent on my knees asking God to take over is the first/best thing to curb the anxiety.
However, I still need some of these other tips:

  • Exercise, just simple stretching, isometrics do the trick. A nice walk is good, but just the act of stretching my muscles out releases the tension.
  • Being present, this can include, but is not limited to:
  1. Noticing the smells in the air, I love the smell of fresh laundry and I have found a candle that smells like laundry dried on a clothesline.
  2. Listening to music, sometimes this is quiet and soothing and other times it is upbeat and energizing.
  3. Tasting, trying to eat something that I truly enjoy. I personally enjoy fruit quite a bit and eating some frozen berries or grapes is a real treat.
  4. Feeling the world around me, maybe this is a cozy fleece blanket wrapped around my shoulders, or the sun warming my skin, or here in Florida it is the cool breeze of the air conditioning moving around my office.
  • I think about the Serenity Prayer:
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
This means that I must learn to do what I stated above, "Let go and let God."

I am trying. I will continue to try, what is the saying? Practice makes perfect!


  1. Oh Thank you Rachel. You typed what i was trying to explain to my husband today about how i worry... worry...worry about everything. To others it seems to minial but to me it blossoms into this big dark cloud that hovers and follows me. It's so hard to shake.
    I've been going to Celebrate Recovery and listening... I need to come up with an "action plan" to keep me accountable and to GIVE IT TO THE LORD rather than trying to control it all. Thank you for your courage to write what you are living, feeling and breathing!
    Lots of Love!

  2. I am glad that it helped, I will pray for you as you try to come up with that action plan. That is the easy part for me at least, it is the carrying it out I struggle with!