Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Recovery is a Journey, not a Destination

I was released from the hospital on Monday.

It was not for the eating disorder, but the hospital always brings that up for me. I always have to tell them about Edith, and the questions start. I even had a nurse tell me that he hated his fat self and hated fat people. I had to draw on my coping tools and remember that his opinion had nothing to do for me. I was actually able to let it go and move on. He was really my favorite nurse.

I realized that I had made another turn in my journey. His comments before would have sent me reeling and ready to embrace Edith. It didn't happen.

I have to be honest that I struggle every day with my eating disorder. I sometimes struggle every minute. I have to make a choice to eat and take my meds as directed. I have to remind myself that I am worthy of self-love and self-care.

I did it! I overcame an obstacle and I am proud of myself!


  1. Yay! That is some serious progress, Rachel! You are an amazing person, and you should reward yourself with something nice (like a new scarf for fall or new, soft socks).

    You are worthy of all love and all care. More than worthy. You are a special, amazing person, and you are loved by so many, just for being you.

  2. rachel this is amazing. i am so happy your overcame this. you are very much worthy and loved. you are a very special person and with your experiences you can help someone else. i will always pray for you to be strong. i know you can beat this. i am so proud of you. i cant wait for you to share with my girls. i am so looking forward to this. may god bless you a;ways. i am so glad you are part of my life and you will always make a difference. always be strong.
    love irene