Friday, December 7, 2012


I have trouble sleeping these days. I have some prescriptions that help, sometimes.

I have a lot on my mind. I worry a lot. I worry about my kids, my health, my future. I try to stay positive, and I try NOT to worry. I still worry.

I don't understand it, because I know that it doesn't change anything. I know that worrying makes one ill. I know that worrying causes only grief.

I still worry.

If you worry, you are not alone. Fight it. Fight the need to control everything. Fight the urge to go to that negative place that tells you all the ways things can go wrong. Join me in that fight.

Maybe one day I can let go of the worry completely. Right now I let go little by little, and that is all I can do. I will "Let go and let God," as much as I am capable of each day.

I will sleep.


  1. Hey Rachel,

    I too am a chronic worrier
    And it's not about the big stuff, it's mostly the little things that get
    The thing I worry most about is what people think of me. I hate that I worry about that, I'd love to just be free to be me without the constant worry of 'what will they think?'

    I am also attempting recovery
    I wish you all the best with yours x

  2. Thanks, and I wish you the best too. To be able to be free of what other think of me has been the hardest battle to fight. I believe it is worth the fight though. Keep it up!