I am not in a relapse, but man oh man would part of me love to be!
Even though it is not a healthy coping mechanism, my eating disorder worked as one. It got me through some incredibly rough times. I am currently going through what is most likely the hardest time of my life, and it would be so easy to numb out and give up.
I am not going to though. I will keep fighting, even though it is such a tough fight.
I am so proud of myself, in the past I would have given in. I would have stopped taking my meds, stop eating a proper diet and isolated myself in my bedroom. Although my eating disorder was not a CHOICE, I finally have the strength to fight it.
I still have not asked Edith back into my life! So take THAT doubters!
This is a blog about an ongoing battle with an eating disorder, my eating disorder, one I have named Edith. This blog will not only tell you about my struggle, but offer resources to help those dealing with the same issues. Please leave comments, and follow the blog. I appreciate feedback.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Relapse?
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Sunday, May 27, 2012
Sometimes
Sometimes I feel sorry for myself.
Sometimes I wonder, why me?
Sometimes I am angry at the world.
Sometimes I want to give up.
Sometimes I can't stop crying.
Sometimes I feel so alone.
Sometimes...
But not all the time.
Sometimes I feel like there is so much to fight for.
Sometimes I am happy.
Sometimes I feel loved.
Sometimes I know that tomorrow will be better.
Sometimes I know there is a reason to fight.
Sometimes I want to live.
Sometimes I laugh uncontrollably.
Sometimes I know I have a purpose.
Sometimes...
But not all the time.
Sometimes I wonder, why me?
Sometimes I am angry at the world.
Sometimes I want to give up.
Sometimes I can't stop crying.
Sometimes I feel so alone.
Sometimes...
But not all the time.
Sometimes I feel like there is so much to fight for.
Sometimes I am happy.
Sometimes I feel loved.
Sometimes I know that tomorrow will be better.
Sometimes I know there is a reason to fight.
Sometimes I want to live.
Sometimes I laugh uncontrollably.
Sometimes I know I have a purpose.
Sometimes...
But not all the time.
Friday, May 11, 2012
The Big News
Yesterday I got the news...I have been cleared to be listed on the transplant list. I will find out more today...that is why I can't sleep!
God is so good, and I know that he will provide in His perfect timing. I will wait on Him and trust Him completely.
If you are a praying person, please join me in prayer on this matter.
God is so good, and I know that he will provide in His perfect timing. I will wait on Him and trust Him completely.
If you are a praying person, please join me in prayer on this matter.
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