Wednesday, May 30, 2012


I am not in a relapse, but man oh man would part of me love to be!

Even though it is not a healthy coping mechanism, my eating disorder worked as one. It got me through some incredibly rough times. I am currently going through what is most likely the hardest time of my life, and it would be so easy to numb out and give up.

I am not going to though. I will keep fighting, even though it is such a tough fight.

I am so proud of myself, in the past I would have given in. I would have stopped taking my meds, stop eating a proper diet and isolated myself in my bedroom. Although my eating disorder was not a CHOICE, I finally have the strength to fight it.

I still have not asked Edith back into my life! So take THAT doubters!


  1. Good for you! Keeping fighting! Don't let Edith win.

  2. I am proud of you too. I'm holding you up in prayer so that the Source of your strength never seem too far. Keep at it Rachel, you are stronger than you know! Love. Love. Love.

  3. keep going girl. I felt like this when my Mum died but you just need to tell that little ed voice where to go xxx

  4. Prayers for you and keep fighting trials are just problems that needs to overcome just like that eating disorder.